Life has been life...

I often wonder how I should start this blog out with leaving for so long.  Well not like I left.  I just founfd myself barely and barely at the comp.  I used to find alot of refuge in being on here...typing out my thoughts..and things we had done day to day.  But I have felt recent refuse in the precence of my family around me.  My husband near as much as he whines, my children with all thier bickering...it's all I know anymore.Seriously, if I can have this anymore...I don't know how to see myself as a person. 

Now beleive me...I could very well move on....yes I could find another man..I could go party and do things I normally would nto do if I was married.  But not being a full part of my home and not having my devoted husband with me and children who can barely even stand for me to go to the grocery store without them is something that permamentally has put this dent in my being where I feel safe...loved....and happy.  It's a fore SURE thing......whay would I trade it for something and a life that was not as sure?  Why would I do that to them???  Now things have never or will never be perfect with us.  But we've grown and know better.

As a mother everyday I am faced with my mornings.....stepping off my bed and standing there.  I think I can get about 2 seconds of think time...before a kiddy runs in the room begging for breakfast.  *Oh yeah huge thing that bugs me is the kids coinstantly reminding me about mean and what to feed them as if i have EvER let them go hungry????!  C'mom...if I have ever did that and did it quite a few times then YES be paranoid!  But sheeessshhh!*  My mind is not even human waking up in the morning.  I am walking through my home already checking off things that need to be done here....need to be done there.  So by the time I make it to the kitchen...I seriously dont' want to hear ANYTHING or nobody asking me for ANYTHING.  Heheh can you guess I am a GREAT morning person??? 

But ehhh..........................

by mid afternoon I am more at my human state and all can relax more around me.

the the afternoons are INSANE........

Evenings...I am on the brink of insanity.....

At bedtime.....when all my beautiful children are in bed I sit there BORED with nothing on tv and I have come to the conclusion with a half grin, "Life is good."

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Well Richard leaves again tomorrow and will miss Ciara's 3rd birthday.  This will be the second birthday of hers he misses in a row.  He's pretty bummed.  but to ease it a little bit I did finish her princess birthday gown she asked me to make her....hehehehe

I slaved over making this dress...it very well took the longest out of any outfit I have ever made.  But she loves it and that makes it all worth it!

OMIGOSH!  I won the crown!!!!

I can't beleive my little girl will be 3 years old on the 17th.  I swear she acts so much older though!  Is that a girl thing????

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The boys have been doing awesome in football!!!  Domininc is the smallest on the tackling team but the kid has ALL HEART.  he doesn't care if the boys are bigger he will get in there and tackle!  Donny on the other hand my more LOGICAL child...hehehe he has an inner fear of getting injured so it slows him down.  Which is frustrating because I know how strong he is and the damage he can cause if he would conjour all that up!!!  I am still trying ot figure out what I can do to release the tiger out of him...hehehehe..

Now little Rian...he's a tiny little beaste out there!!!!  It's so obvious if he was just as big as the other boys he would dominate!!!!!!!!!!  He's also obviously the coaches lil fave...hehehe  But he's awesoem adn they know it.  He knows way more than the other boys know and is so much more coordinated.  He's just TINY! LOL!!!  I had one mom even come up to me and ask me if he was previously trained..LOL!  NOPE!  I overheard another lady on her phone saying, "There's this little one..he's probaly the best one but he is ttttiiiiinnnnyyyy!!!!"  Really he is! Hahahaha!

He is the second one in the line.  See how much they tower over him?!!!! LOL!  Oh well....he's gonna be even better next year.

I am just so proud of them.....they have no idea.

When the football season ends we will be putting Daedrian and Michah into something of thier choice.  they did not want to play football.  So When the football season is over the focus will be on them this time.  Wow...for once I can actually say this is one of the things that really does suck with haveing 6 kids!  Then being in sports and trying to be there for then with sports as much as I can!  Especially with the hubby gone!

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WOW...the twins will be in school!!!!!  Kinder!

I have lists and notecards of what I still need to buy.  For the most part I have been buying whatever and whenever they have sales.  So went through my huge inventory of bags piled in my husbands closet to count out what I have and what is left to buy.  Not too bad reall.  What will is mor enew school clothes and shoes.  The twins need backpacks and Daedrian will need a new one.  I bout Donny and Dominic highbrand pricey ones last year that are still good for this year so they;ll be fine ono those.  Heheh heck they aren't girls which is one good thing...they don't care about having the same backpack! LOL!  My mind has been spinning!!!!

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Oh yeah...and spinnin with othe rprojects in mind I will be doing.  You may not even know till almost to the end of it.  But you'll eventually know.

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Other than that...things have been okay with us.  Not looking forward to dealing with all this sports stuff without Richard.  Well.....don't want him to leave....but heck it gots to be done right?

Well hope you all are doing well!

Mucho love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. My finger still wont bend fully from breaking it.....

"Cia Creations" Myspace site!

I have a Myspace up just for my creations!

Come check it out!  I will have cute girly contests where you can win a custom creation for your princess!  But only people on my friends list are eligable to enter in the contests.  So add me! LOL!

http://www.myspace.com/ciacreations  

Also every month I will make a bunch of items and just sell them off in my monthly "yardsale".  I also still do take requests for custom outfits.

Come look! Hehehe

I'm here!!!

Life has been life!!!

But I have been sititng here sometimes..just thinking of things to write.....UHG!  I so need to catch up!!!!  I will post a FULL post soon mamas!!!  I miss doing this.

But until then...

My loving hubby has decided to nominate me for this thing! LOL!!!  He is away now but he looked it up..can't upload pics so I had to help uhg!  Now...I don't think I am some kind of super duper awesome mom.  I feel like I do what I need to do just liek other mamas do.  But heck if he nomintae dme it wouldn't hurt to try and win right?  I never win anything though..so it feels a little weird..also the fact that there are tons of awesome mamas on there already!!! LOL!!  BUT if you feel like I deserve to win even just a little bit please feel free to vote for me!!!!

Just click on the button!

Thanks mamas!!!!  Will be back soon!!!!!

Protected post up!

Not the typical bathroom experience.....

       You know, some people wouldn't even think twice about using the bathroom.  It's a normal thing right?  All quiet in there...sitting, thinking to yourself.  Occasionally reaching for the shampoo bottle just to have something to read....thinking more, and concentrating.  At least that's how it USED to be........

      First off going to the bathroom in the first place is a huge inconvenience to me.  I know in leaving the site of my children a select fe will most likely get into something they are not supposed too.  I actually don't know WHY I think like this because they usually end up in the bathroom with me.

    Well there I am..I actually bother to close the door.  I guess in HOPES that I will have some kind of solitute in needing to do what I need to do right???  Ummm yeah okay! 

   Usually Ciara wonders in first...I can tell by the slow turning of the door handle...hehehe.  "Hi mama!"  My sweet little just turned two year old chimes! 

"Ciara, Get out from under the sink!"

"Ciara, DO NOT hang off the towell rack!"

      I hear a loud rolling of plastic wheels down the hallway.  Here comes Rian crusin in on Ciara's Princess ride on toy (I swear no matter how many times I tell the little guy it's for girls..he insists on speeding down the hallway on it most of the day..hehehe) "Mama!!!  Did you see how fast I can go?!!!"  Me, " Yes baby I saw it..you went really fast, now please get that outo f the bathroom."

      Then Michah follows behind him, "Mama Daedrian won't give me back that wrestling guy!" Sigh..."Daedrian, Give back whatever you took from Michah!!!!"  Oh of course Daedrian comes running in, "But mama!!! I had it first!"  And so begins the ever classic, "No I did!, No I did!" debate.

"Ciara!  Get off the rim of the bathtub!  You are going to fall!!!"

     Donny comes walking in, "Mama..Dominic is crying because he keeps losing to me at Star Wars."  **Deeper sigh**  "Dominic!!!  If you are going to cry over games you will not play ever!!!!"  Dominic comes rushing in, "But mama..He keeps killing me, and all I want to do is play normal."  "Donny...stop killing your brother okay?"

"Ciara!  NO you cannot sit on my lap right now!"

     Okay about this time I just KNOW there is a toilet ring around my ass and thighs.  I just need to finish up my bussiness and it's a bit loud in here!!!!  "You know what?!!!  Everybody OUT!!!  Let mama poop in peace!!!!!" (Yes I actually tell them to let me poop in peace...) OUT Shoo!!! Go! Go all of you!"  So one by one they head on out and I push the door closed behind them.

    All I do is sit there for a second.......

   Seriously, when is it going to be grosse to them to even be in there while I go???? Well I finish up my bussiness and proceed back into the livingroom, WHERE all of them are quiet, playing contently and NOBODY says a word to me.

HUH?!!!!!!!

    I guess there is just something about mama going to the bathroom.............**sigh**

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       BTW mamas...THANK YOU for all the compliments on my pregnoid pics.  Since this is probaly my last pregnancy...I kinda want to enjoy it ya know?  I actually do feel really good with this pregnancy.  I also think it helps to know I am doing something good.

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Recent things.....

     Also my comp got fried with a sever thunder and lightening storm we had the other day.  I am currently using a neighbors extra laptop..LOL!  So hopefully I will be posting like norm and have lots of pics like usual....  I just ordered replacement parts so should get those soon.  Damn storm!

     Member crazy neighbor guy that yelled at me and I got all ghetto on his ass?  Well since the kids have been taken away from them..YES they have been going bowling.  Can you beleive that????  I could not even function if my kids were taken from me?!!!  Well anyway he just got arrested yesterday!!!  yup, some cops came and stormed thier house and took his ass away.  My nieghbors said he got arrested because of something one of the children said.  ASSHOLE

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"Question and Answering time!"

i would LOVE to be a surrogate mom how did you get to do it? KateLeigh_1985

Well my story is a long one..hehehe but if you want to do it you can go through an agency or go independantly.  I I did not go through an agency and found my intended parents online.  There are alot of surrogate message boards that cna answer questions and provide lots of support and the biggest thing is DO LOTS OF RESEARCH.  I have mentioned before it is not as easy as it sounds.  You go through physicals, phsyc evals, there is certain things they look for, go through lawyers, contracts, more doctors...lotd of medications....phew!  But you know what?  It IS worth it in the long run!  So far it's been such a wonderful process for me and I love my intende parents dearly!!!!!

Your skin looks fabulous. What kind of makeup do you use again? screenpycht

I use Sheercover mineral makeup.  I LOVE IT!!!  I swear it feels very light..I have really oily skin and other makeups make my skin feel greasy by the end of the day.  But not this stuff!  Also it's so easy for it to match your skin color.  So it looks even more natural. 

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     Richard comes home to visit Friday!!! I am so excited!!!! Well you all know how much I miss him..hehehe.  He's bee working out and wants to suprise me on how good he looks....GREAT...he's gonna come home all looking good and me...well..I look BIGGER!  Oh well....The kids are excited too!!!!!!  He'll be home for 2 weeks and them we wont see him again for good this time untill December.  OMG please pray I don't go into labor before he gets home!!!!!

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    Well it's time for me to go for now.....

    Hope you all are having a wonderful beautiful week!  BTW I have done 3 Popeyes runs this week! YIKES! LOL!!!  Oh yeah...I have decided to do some posts public..but most of them will be protected.  Like when I show pics n stuff of my kiddies. 

Till next time ladies!!!  MUWAHZ!!!!